My life is only just beginning, and since I already have someone to spend it with, I just need to find somewhere to spend it for now. Nothing lasts forever anyways. I’ve spent pretty much my whole life on the west coast, so maybe it’s time for a complete change of setting. The furthest east I’ve ever been was Yellowstone, but that was only for a day or two. I have lots of family in Boston but I don’t know any of them, and family and friends are the only reason I’m here. At least I know that if I moved to Florida and started a restaurant, I’m covered in the Miami hood cleaning department.
The current city I live in actually holds the most of my childhood memories, both good and bad. Then I have these thoughts about just remaining here instead of going somewhere else. Why not just create more memories here, but instead of them being about school and my childhood, now they will just be about my significant other? Maybe that’s too optimistic of a viewpoint.
I have already known for my whole life that I have a short attention span, and I don’t want to make her move around whenever I get bored. I know she’ll say yes anyways, but for the wrong reasons. She only does stuff because I want to do it, but I’m helping her change and become independent. Life sucks when you don’t have a childhood and your best friend has to teach you what it’s truly like to live. Unfortunately, there’s also the costs of moving everything to wherever I decide to settle down.
One characteristic of my personality is intolerance of uncertainty, which is also actually a symptom of generalized anxiety disorder. I bet you didn’t know that. If I’m being honest, it’ll be difficult for me to move anywhere, even if I just moved into a house in a neighborhood one mile from my current one. I just extremely dislike not knowing things, which is probably intrinsic in everyone after all. After all, it’s a survival instinct. Fear of the unknown is your body’s way of telling you that it can’t do an appraisal, so it can’t determine whether or not something is dangerous. This just drives it to pick the latter choice, to be safe.